Sunday, September 17, 2006
This past weekend was VERY strange.
Husband and I have been arguing all weekend long... like CATS & DOGS! The contention has been overwhelming.
I love him dearly but lately we've just been so impatient with each other. I've been under enormous amounts of stress and something needs to give. I'm afraid to ask my husband to wait while I put my mothers house in order because my husband should be FIRST.... but such is the case.
Often times, when he and I get into it like this -- the first thing we talk about is walking away and not looking back. Divorce and living without each other. After all the arguing and disagreeing and we're just fed up to the HIGHEST, it usually goes down like this....
HIM: so what u wanna do?
ME: what u WANNA do?
HIM: u couldn't handle life without me.
ME: trust me. i've done it before. i don't NEED u.
HIM: yeah right. u wouldn't even make it if i left.
ME: no you wouldn't make it.
Going through the same dialogue after we've done arguing feeds that temporary desire to be rid of each other. And we repeat this dialogue ALL.THE.TIME. Is it healthy? I don't know. It's become a tradition with us.
Truth be told, I love my husband. He is such a positive force in my life. Right now we're struggling through the mundane and we'll get through it.