Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Chaos

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This has been a VERY rough month for me.

I have never felt so displaced as I do today. There are several reasons why it is so.

First and foremost -- caring for my mother has proven to be QUITE challenging. She is still very stubborn and VERY dramatic.

Number two -- My husband should come first and for the most part he does... but as a dutiful daughter I feel a compelling need to care for my mother and in the process have neglected the needs of my own little family. Thank the Lord above that my husband is so understanding and supportive.

Number three -- it's been a transition for me... as far as careers go... I've been working on the Charter School thing and for the most part, it's a waiting game now. I've submitted several grant applications and the team has been patiently waiting for responses. In the meantime, I've been temping to pay the bills and I thought I'd never say this but -- I want to get stable. I want to lay down some roots and really dig in and SETTLE down. **sigh**

Husband has been really supportive through all of this. Right now, he's attending school and its really great. I think he's tired of the whole school thing and wants to get out and WORK. I support whatever decision he makes. I'm a firm believer that you can do WHATEVER you put your mind to -- with OR without an education.

I've thrown all my cards into the air and as they chaotically, haphazardly fall from the sky -- they will LAY where they will LAY... and I will be just fine.

3 comments:

Hassan said...

You already are blessed and fine. It just seems chaotic.

Aeshema the Fury said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Im also taking care of my mother and it is Hard, exhausting, heart-breaking work so I feel you.

You Will be fine. Just stay open and positive, and things will fall as they will, and generally, thats for the best.

Did I mention I LOVE your blog? And you? Such a hottie! (teeheehee!)

Much love..

Benticore
Out

ShellyP said...

Things will get better. I can't say anything about the mother situation (cause my mother is trying, to say the least, so I know how that is), but the waiting will come to an end and the stability will kick in. Then you'll be off doing things bigger and better.