Thursday, November 30, 2006

Smiling As I Write

I layed on the gigantic lawn at work. I don't remember the last time I layed down in a field in the middle of the day.

The lawn had just been cut. The sun was beaming. Sky was blue without a cloud in sight. The cafeteria in the distance wafted the smell of freshly baked bread. It was silent except for the occasional car passing by.

I must have looked strange in the middle of that field, laying there like a girl WITHOUT a care in the world. That's how I've been feeling lately.... unbelievably happy, JOYOUS; a woman WITH ONLY wonderful things happening.

I'm so GRATEFUL for all the things I've ever experienced in my life, all the things I have now and all the things that are on its way.

**sigh**

Friday, November 24, 2006

Just Another....


File Thanksgiving as another STUPID, AMERICAN Holiday.

Really, I can't be upset about it though, I have two paid days off... so I should be grateful for Thanksgiving.

Everyday is a day to be thankful. I BEGIN my days with gratitude. I take my 20 minutes of meditation time in the morning to give thanks to God for all the WONDERFUL people and wonderful things I have in my life... then I VISUALIZE my life... exactly as I want it to be. No doubt -- this has been the most empowering thing I have EVER done for myself.

Why do people get so caught up in Thanksgiving?

I spent Thanksgiving day body boarding at my favorite beach.... We ate some kosher, beef hot dogs and potato salad and some chips.... some laulau (pork and fish wrapped with greens and cooked for a realllllly long time) and that's it. It doesn't get any better than that. I mean -- we was in CHILL mode. We didn't kill ourselves, slaving over a hot stove, breaking the bank to feed everybody and their mama. We just hung out at the beach and it was great.

Came home -- and my neighbor had cooked a HUGE meal and had nobody to eat it with... so husband and I ate at her crib too. We played a round of scrabble. Watched Nacho Libre. Laughed my butt off then went straight to bed.

It was a great day... even if it is a stupid American holiday. LOL...

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Other Obsessions


I often find myself so busy without any time to do things I TRULY love doing. I love blogging but some "other obsessions" have stolen my time this past week.

  • Lastnight I found myself in front of the "boob tube" watching HGTV. Design On a Dime has been a recent addiction.

  • Sleep has found its way into my life. I used to get by on about four hours of sleep a night... but lately... deep slumber visits me.

  • I've begun starting my mornings with Billy Blanks... TaeBo Cardio. The time is now to get back in shape. Husband and I haven't been taking care of ourselves the way we used to when we first met. LOL... I want my beautiful body back!!! **winks**

  • I'm working at a new joint that I absolutely love. I might even find some time at work to sneak some blogging in.

  • After my morning workouts with Billy Blanks, I tune my digital cable box to the Music Choice Soundscapes channel and have been doing some visualizing, positive affirmations exercises. It feels great!!!


These have been my past weeks addictions. Please pardon my absence from the BLOGGING scene.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

The Secret

So what has been up with me in the past couple of days? Let's say PARADIGM SHIFT.

I watched the most extraordinary movie and it has totally helped me ALTER my life... in minutes. It is THAT serious!!



You would not believe the results I've experienced in such a short time, using "The Secret".

Do it for yourself... go ahead and either BUY the DVD or pay the $5 bucks to pay-per-view-it.

Do you know what your life will look like in the next week, in the next 30 days, in the next 6 months, in the next year? Watch The Secret and use the tools.

I know I sound like an infomercial right about now but two posts ago -- I was down in the dumps. Watching this movie has awakened me!

Monday, November 06, 2006

Sorry

My temper is a strange thing.

I apologized to my husband today for how terrible I've been... for the negative thoughts I've had and for also how those thoughts have manifested. I have to thank Hassan for checkin' me and reminding me to be grateful for what I DO have.

I have a wonderful man that loves me and puts up with my strange moods. I am able to attain the highest of highs. With that, in contrast, I have also visited the lowest of lows.

I am a spoiled woman. I want what I want and am not the happiest camper if I don't get what I want. He and I have been in such a strange funk lately. Life is so mundane and not full of the energy that I usually enjoy.

I desire that "swept off my feet" vibe that I had when he and I first met. It was magical. When I met my husband, he represented EVERYTHING I had longed for. The funny thing is -- he is STILL that man... and then some. I am so blessed! So very blessed to have this strong man traveling this path with me.

I am grateful to the MOST HIGH for gracing my life with HIM.




Sunday, November 05, 2006

Is It?

Boredom
Monotony
Sameness
Routine
Mundane
Mediocre
Void of Passion
Void
Empty

Crying myself to sleep... longing for something I CANNOT have.
What I have now is more than I've ever had before... yet the one level that manifests physical is illusive.

"Is it still good to ya?"

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Wash It Out With Soap

An ENORMOUS argument erupted at the neighbors house.

She's mad that he brought his tail in from the night before at 9am. She's the only one I hear clearly. Her man is barely audible. In her anger, every other word begins with 'F'. I do feel a certain degree of compassion for whatever trials the woman must be experiencing but is there anyway that she might be able to clean up her vocabulary?

I'm no judge of her parenting skills. I'm sure she's a wonderful mother but foul-mouthed parents will MAKE foul-mouthed kids.

I'm reminded of how my mother would tell me that she'd wash my mouth out with soap -- to clean up the mean things I'd say. I can't imagine what she'd have to say about my neighbors.

If this post comes off as "mightier-than-thou"... I apologize. I just started my day WONDERFULLY until the neighbors erupted in a cuss-word-storm.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

The Gift You Gave


A couple of years ago, I gave a gift to a friend... naw she's more than that... she's like a sister. Anyway, I created a series of gifts for her for Christmas.

At the time, I had just separated from my ex-husband and had been without him for like four months. Consequently, she had been there for me through every snot-nosed, tears streaming like a river, eyes puffy, nose swollen cry session and passed no judgement on me and the man I was in love with.

Since giving the gift, I haven't duplicated it nor have I felt as sentimental as I did that Christmas season.

One of the gifts I gave, in the series, was a heart-shaped box filled with a hundred questions that I hand-wrote and rolled into seperate scrolls. I'm a fanatic about diaries and journals. The only time she'd start a journal was when she was going through a break-up so to encourage her to keep writing, I did the hundred question thing. That was a gift I wish someone had given me.

What's yours? What's a gift you gave that you wish someone gave to you?