Tuesday, October 25, 2011

PHOTO SHOOT: Mr. & Mrs. Elison

An old friend came into town. She brought her sister to renew her marriage vows with her husband. It was a cute 15-20 minute ceremony on our wonderful HUKILAU BEACH. I feel like my editing skills are getting better and maybe even my creative eye. Good luck to the lovely couple and their baby girl. Fun!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Missing Her So Much

I miss my momz...

...but I just realized how hard this must be for my father. As I try to sort out my own feelings, I haven't been able to see past my own nose. Today, I sat with my father and tried to express to him how hard it has been for me to process the loss of my mother combined with the distraction of two cousins that never left since their arrival prior to my mother's funeral.

He said one sentence that just broke my heart: "I wish I could be wherever she is."

I wish I could be with her too....

I can't wait to see her again.

I can't believe how hard this has been.

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Make the World Go Away

So much is going on in my home. It's driving me insane. I cannot stand one more minute.

My mother passed on June 30th. We held off with the funeral until everyone was here for our family reunion at the end of July. My mother's eldest brother left two of his children when he left after the funeral. I am absolutely FRAZZLED by their presence in my home and their inability to fit into our household paradigm.

I haven't even had a chance to mourn the loss of my mother and I'm stuck with two strangers in my home. (Even though they are my 1st cousins, I only met them once before.) It adds to my sense of loss because normally my mother would deal with her family. I can't even begin to explain the crazy things that have happened since these strangers came to our home.

I am ready to EXPLODE.
I wish they would just GO HOME.

They are grown adults (over 21) and I have to tell them to clean up around the house, to take a shower, clean the bathroom, wash the dishes. What did their parents teach them? They are just THORNS in my side.

I miss my mom... wish I could just "be" in my house without the extra baggage around.