Thursday, March 11, 2010

Epiphanies.

Has it really been a week since my last post? Wow! Time flies. It's funny how I don't work, haven't been really busy doing much but didn't find time to get on my blog.... and blogging is something I really enjoy. Well, we're getting ready to move back west and I'm super duper excited. Everything is set and ready to go. Life is amazing and I'm ready to get out of this place. As soon as husband decided that Alabama wasn't for him (I already knew that it wasn't for me), it was as if God's entire universe was in on the decision. Money "fell from the sky" in support of this move. Serious. That always humbles me... the way things that I need and want manifests in my life. I am extremely grateful!

The most compelling reason why we're moving is because we just don't fit here. The level of consciousness of the people here is not exactly on our level. Not that we're extremely advanced or anything but we have moved beyond what we've found here in Alabama. I attribute this "change" in us to our commitment to living a healthy lifestyle, from regular exercise everyday, minimal meat in our diet, weekly worship, and an enduring humility, respect, and love for GOD. This has truly separated us from the average person in Alabama and I am truly grateful. Grateful in the sense that I'm no longer lost, without a direction because I'm no better than any Alabama-an. I am, however, different and I just don't "fit" here. My commitment to pursuing a life full of love, light, and truth has been so very fulfilling.

I miss my parents and my family immensely. Especially my nieces and nephew. However, I realize now that they have infused so much of their goodness in me. And for right now, in this moment, I know that I experience all of this because I come from good stock and I am strong enough to perpetuate that. It is as if I have an increased appreciation for my heritage, for the neighborhood that I come from, for the people that I have been surrounded by in the community, for the high school I went to, for my religious affiliation... well, you get the picture. I am very grateful for all the people who have ever contributed to my life. I am humbled when I look back at my pride and ignorance of yesterday. Hopefully that will never be a problem again. **sigh**

Life is such a beautiful process, especially if you're open to possibilities. The most difficult time in our lives are truly the proving grounds; it is the process by which the 'dross' or the impurities in our lives are pushed out. The best thing to do is to hold on tight and move through it. I'm moving through it and I know you can too.



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4 comments:

Ui said...

i totally just posted on ur fb about this!!!! lol. well..about the part on how everything works itself out. i'm excited you're moving...and man...you truly inspire me to live a healthier life. i keep talking about it...i just need to DO it!

The Brown Blogger said...

Oh my God.

*does praise dance*

I OVERstand.
I really do.

I am happy for the two of you for taking this journey.

I have so much to say about this, but... I digress. I'll just relay to you my happiness.

****SUE**** said...

Such an inspiring post :) Excited to sit and chat with you when you arrive in the beautiful state of Utah. :)

IWA (e - va) said...

Good Luck with your move!