Banner Of Strength

Today I am hopeful again.

The sun is shining brilliantly outside and I feel a sense of wonder and peace with how my life is unfolding.

One thing I know for sure is that I can see so clearly, my star rising.

I see so clearly how the current events in my life are pushing me to my greatest good, to my highest potential, and I can only feel gratitude for what is. Even if this hard time is painful and lonely, I am unconditionally accepting its lessons.

There is so much love in my heart even with the extreme feelings of grief that I am experiencing. I know that LOVE will conquer all.

My loyalty is unwavering and has always been that way. Perhaps, I extend it to the most unworthiest of souls but it is a trait that I am proud to wear like a banner of strength.

He will look back one day and regret the relationship that he threw in the garbage. When he removes himself from his unsavory elements and questionable company, the gravity of his actions will bear on his soul.

As I look forward to the many avenues ahead of me, I am frightened by the vast possibilities but hopeful. He will never find a woman like me. Never! And my life will move on with the strength of a gushing waterfall toward peace and empowerment. I will remember the strength of my love for him to carry me through the lonely days ahead.

Chasm of Sorrow

Today is hard.
Today I am sad.

I was hopeful yesterday but today, today I am hopeless.

I love so deeply and so loyally that when betrayal arrives at my door, I feel broken.

I wish I could crawl back into bed, put a sheet over my head, and make the world go away. I wish I could sleep peacefully without the worries of tomorrow pulsing in my brain. Yet I don't think it is worry that keeps me awake but a loss of the expectation of what I thought my life would be like.

Tomorrow has changed significantly.
Tomorrow is a blur.

I cry when I'm alone.
Mourning.
Grieving.
Wishing things could be different.

I feel numb in the waking hours.
Insistent that this is just a nightmare and that I will wake from its grip.

My heart is breaking and I can do nothing but feel it intensely.
I am falling so helplessly down a chasm of sorrow.
And all I want is to feel joy again.

Quick "Vase Bouquet" Picture Tutorial

I had leftover flowers from a floral job I just did. This is what I do with the leftover flowers and foliage.