Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Make the World Go Away

So much is going on in my home. It's driving me insane. I cannot stand one more minute.

My mother passed on June 30th. We held off with the funeral until everyone was here for our family reunion at the end of July. My mother's eldest brother left two of his children when he left after the funeral. I am absolutely FRAZZLED by their presence in my home and their inability to fit into our household paradigm.

I haven't even had a chance to mourn the loss of my mother and I'm stuck with two strangers in my home. (Even though they are my 1st cousins, I only met them once before.) It adds to my sense of loss because normally my mother would deal with her family. I can't even begin to explain the crazy things that have happened since these strangers came to our home.

I am ready to EXPLODE.
I wish they would just GO HOME.

They are grown adults (over 21) and I have to tell them to clean up around the house, to take a shower, clean the bathroom, wash the dishes. What did their parents teach them? They are just THORNS in my side.

I miss my mom... wish I could just "be" in my house without the extra baggage around.


Aubrey Anne said...

I'm so sorry about your mother! And that you can't just disappear for a while to mourn and accept. :( I hope things get better for you soon!

evotia said...

I do wish u were given the space to mourn. Why don't you just explode? U don't seem the type to do it often.. if at all. There is a reason for them being in ur life right now.. stranger or not, perhaps they are giving u the opportunity to release. U need an "auwe" moment. Give urself the freedom to do so and then surprise them with a "thank u!" If anything, u'd get a good laugh :)

Ceeu N Uila said...

I love your honesty. It's refreshing...I hope they've left by now....