Monday, September 28, 2009

Homesick For HOME

I made it across the continent. We picked up our car this past Friday in Oakland, California and drove cross-country and made it to Alabama just today. I am utterly HOMESICK this evening. I am so longing for the comforts of my island. Everything is so vast, so large, so wide here and there's no ocean in sight. I don't remember feeling this alone recently! I had to have been 4 or 5 the last time I felt like this. My parents had a little "situation" last night and that doesn't help the turmoil inside me. This move was so very hard. I have struggled every day since my husband first told me that we were making this move.

If we had stayed in Hawai'i, then he would be miserable. Here we are in Alabama and I'm miserable. I'm trying really hard to have a positive attitude. It hasn't even been 12 hours. **heavy sigh** I can't even put my finger on what exactly is causing me so much grief. I want to go home but my husband deserves happiness also. Husband never wants to return to Hawai'i to live. He's okay with visiting but not living there. I don't know what to make of that because I've always had it in my head that that is where I would spend all of my days.

Tomorrow has to be better than right now. Please let me find joy again.

3 comments:

evotia said...

hang in there girly! although my husband and I have the same battles, i keep hope that one day, we will make hawaii our permanent home. keep hope alive my fellow islander! keep hope alive!!!!

i fell u though...southern hospitality doesn't quite compare!

IWA (e - va) said...

The spouse and I are currently trying to find middle ground on the same issue.... He says Utah... I say Bootah..... and Im too afraid to pray about the issue, just incase he's right!

Good Luck in Alabama!....and if it makes you feel any better, Zippy's does overnight shipping!

WV: corappi... haha! That's how i feel every time I think that i graduate in less then one year and will have to move away!

****SUE**** said...

Hey Coreen!!
I totally feel you on the homesickness thing....It was so hard for me moving out here to Utah..But I've been blessed to finally find some good people to surround myself with...I hope you find the same sis...but in the mean time I think you should come to Utah for the Musical Truth fireside...it's the next best thing to being at home. Love you tons..please call me if you're up to talking. Love ya