July 16th, 1994
Aroha?! I spent the whole day with Shane. He is good to me. And Joe is another one. You know, he gave Shane the house key cause he said he can't see me going back to the house. That made me feel good. I mean, this guy is looking out for me. Joe is just it. I kinda understand why he's backin' me... the same thing happened to his sister. I was sittin' with Joe and Shane listening to them reminisce and I just don't know how they do it. Everyone goes from base to base. They make acquaintances and some may turn into friends. And if you do happen to find a friend --> the friendships run deep and grow strong. Like Shane and Joe. It's been about 2-1/2 hours that I been away from Shane and I really miss him. I wanna be held by him. I am really gonna miss him when he goes but I don't expect our friendship to end. I only hope it'll grow stronger! They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder.
Anyway, Joe, Shane, and myself went to Kailua. They was taking me to Masina's house. You won't believe how happy I was. How happy I still am. I mean Keesa was there. Uncle Henry. Aunty Mata. Brian. Me and Keesa was bonding. She's gonna try and hook me up at Sports Authority. Umhmm.. that big ole store... of nothin' but athletic ware. Okay?! I hope I get it. Lord knows I need a job. Then I can go to Leeward Community College. If I get the 6am to 2pm shift, I can take afternoon classes. Do homework at night and see Shane. I only have limited time with him. I hope things fall into place. It's gonna be on. Okay?!
I swear, Shane is gettin' to me. His sweetness. He seems to SPOIL me all the time. And you know I don't need that!! I am grateful for his support because I ain't gettin' it from my parents. He is just a strength to me... a constant support. No matter what, I know he is there to pick me up when I fall. Tomorrow, we're supposed to go see The Lion King. I hope he comes to get me. Dang I miss him. The hugs and kisses. The gentle caress. When I'm with him, things seem to be okay. I feel safe and secure. It's like, all I need is him and it feels like everything's gonna be alright. Oh I don't know how to explain it. Time seems to fly with him. Anyway...
Patricia was tellin' me to just slow down. Uncle Henry said to take care of mom and dad. Be good. Slow down.