Saturday, November 05, 2005

The Goings On

I know folks have been wondering what's been goin' on with me. I can be an avid blogger. I enjoy writing as a means of purging myself of unnecessary baggage.... but lately, I've just been Missing in Action.

There is so much going on in my world that it's hard to put my finger on JUST ONE THING that has kept me away from my blog. As I analyze things in my mind, I find that I categorize things into what I need and what I want.

A couple of weeks ago, husband and I endeavored on actually writing down our goals. I've learned in the "seminar circuit" that writing down our goals separates them from just wishing it. This was actually a difficult exercise for me. I didn't complete it. It's like I'm afraid to dream further than what I've already dreamed up for myself. I'm afraid to write it down. Afraid to put it on paper because then I must hold myself to it. **sigh**

I have changed so much in the past year that it is hard to imagine the way I was last year. Husband and I have placed ourselves on such an exciting journey. We had a deep discussion the other night about where our lives are headed. It can be said that the path we're on is less traveled. It can be said that the path is dangerous. Yet, I hear the rumblings in my spirit to STOP BEING average.

In our discussion about this exciting new world, I told husband that I have the courage to continue on. Come what may, I will stand firm in my beliefs. So while folks claim to pledge allegiance to their hero's, I think we're all missing the point. Allegiance to our hero's means FOLLOWING them on their path... and that path is usually LESS TRAVELLED, fraught with danger yet unbelievably FULFILLING.

Very few of us ever do what we were born to do. We allow ourselves to be shaped by what our parents and teachers want for us. Or we allow the media to manipulate us. But all of us have a purpose that is greater than we can imagine for ourselves. I believe we must follow that nagging in our gut to take the road less travelled instead of allowing the government and the school system beat us into submission.

Remember that passion we had as teenagers... to CHANGE.THE.WORLD. Why aren't we changing the world? Why hasn't the world changed? Because what we fear is alienation. We fear retribution. We are afraid of going against the grain. We don't want to go to jail. All these things have LITTLE to do with our own moral compass. Yet it is that compass that should direct us... not FEAR.

The highest power that I will EVER have to answer to is the Creator. The evil regime that runs this country today does not scare me. My direction is clear and I am not afraid anymore. I am not afraid of what will be said of me. It is of NO consequence.


The Brown Blogger said...
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The Brown Blogger said...

I recieved a call from the Creator over the summer. I didn't quite know what to do with my talent, so I was guided. I lost contact with the woman I was with, so called friends that caused toxic situations made themselves scarce and I was fired from my easy, but uncomfortable job. Other things happened, and I knew by the way things were happening that I was being delivered and not being dumped upon. Now, I have new focus, new purpose and a new mate (as well as a new job and tons of offers), and I'm finally using my talent to make that change and be of some good in the hood. The key is stepping out on faith and buying into what we say we want to do in order to be effective. It was tough at first, but now I'm glad I did. I've never been this happy. Go ahead, write those words down and hold yourself to them. You'll be surprised what happens from there.

The_Practitioner said...

I feel you totally on finding your passion. I was, at one point, such a force to be reckoned with. I was full of passion and that desire. Then life happened. Only know am I rediscovering that guy. When the two of us become reconciliated, the sh!t is going to be on for real. ;o)