Sunday, October 16, 2016
Runaway Weekend 2016
Life is full of twists and turns. When you think you have it figured it out, it throws several curve balls all at once.
Relationships are complex.
It seems to be the theme of my life. Yet I know one thing. I was created to give my precious LOVE to one man with passion and LOYALTY and genuine affection. I still only want to give my soul to one man. He, on the other hand, has other plans for his life that don't include me. And I must move on and let go and I have made peace with that. I don't want to be sad anymore. I will move through this grief in the way that I know how.
Though I appreciate all the offers for dinner or lunch and cry sessions, truthfully, I am the only one that can walk through this storm. I am the only one that can feel this pain and release it from my life.
This past weekend, I ran away from it all. I needed to be away from anyone and everything familiar to me to figure out exactly what I want from my life. In a sense, I do see my path so clearly. My star is rising so brightly and the whole experience of the past couple of weeks is prodding me ever so abruptly into the light; onto the path that I was born to walk.
I find beauty in simple things especially in nature. This runaway weekend was definitely needed to remember my center, to connect with "the stuff" that I have gone without for so long. I was seeking to inhale love and forgiveness and exhale pain and resentment. I am grateful for my guide, gently holding my hand through several beautiful visions of God's world. Through space and time and the fabric of dreams, this runaway weekend was destined.
And I think to myself, WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD.