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Chasm of Sorrow


Today is hard.

Today I am sad.


I was hopeful yesterday but today, today I am hopeless.


I love so deeply. I am fiercely loyal. When betrayal arrives at my door, I feel broken.


I wish I could crawl back into bed, put a sheet over my head, and make the world go away. I wish I could sleep peacefully without the worries of tomorrow pulsing in my brain. Yet I don't think it is worry that keeps me awake but a loss of the expectation of what I thought my life would be like.


Tomorrow has changed significantly.

Tomorrow is a blur.


I cry when I'm alone.

Mourning.

Grieving.

Wishing things could be different.


I feel numb in the waking hours.

Insistent that this is just a nightmare and that I will wake from its grip.


My heart is breaking and I can do nothing but feel it intensely.

I am falling so helplessly down a chasm of sorrow.

And all I want is to feel joy again.